Friday, March 9, 2012

so done...with, like, everything?

So I quit my job a few weeks back. Since then I have been valiantly looking for a new job. I apply to jobs that I don't even think I'm qualified for just in case someone sees something in my like my old employer once did... but no.
                     NOTHING.
I am either under-qualified or over qualified or overlooked because I have a different major.
I was even thinking that, even though I haven't gone on any interviews, maybe if I took all my piercings out it would up my chances or getting a job.
Almost a whole month of not working, and between being cooped up at home all day everyday and sending 20 to 30 resumes a day, sifting thru bs resumes to find good ones that I could work with and then having them turn out to be fakes anyway...its disheartening.
I know I always said that people who worked the jobs they turn their noses up at... McDonalds, Wendys, Walmart... could save the economy... I pay $1000 a month in student loans and can't find a job? What did I go to school for????
I could have no student loan debt and work at Walmart, probably be a manager by now. But instead I'm ROCK BOTTOM.
And to make matters worse, I have way more bills than just student loans. List? sure:
Car payment
Rent
Cable/electric
Car insurance
Cell phone
Credit card
AES
CitiLoan
Life Insurance(in case something happens to me and my parents are forced to pay off the balance of my student loans)
                        Facts of LIFE: EVERYTHING COSTS MONEY
Shitty realizations: anyone can screw you when it comes to money, you cannot survive in a small apartment staying home twiddling your thumbs all day everyday, there is only so many times a week you can clean the apartment and feel like you've accomplished something, even people you think are supporting you and helping you out have their doubts about you. F M L

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