bored blogging passes the time of a racing mind

Honestly... how did I get to this point?
Like I've said about crazy people(can't stand them) they're just everywhere. Is there such thing as normal? I think that's the idea to ponder today. Cuz what is normal in a person? The guy who works in the suit from 9 to 5 goes home to his wife and two kids for dinner then turns on his computer and runs a fetish porn site out of his home? For all anyone knows hes a normal 5'9" white male with sandy blonde hair, decently geometrical face and well kept hair who drives a Toyota because its dependable, doesn't quite make 6 figures but lives comfortably and hes the guy with some crazy fetish porn site that's just really taking off on the internet and he's gotta come up with some sort of excuse for the extra income to keep a low profile. But he appears normal.

Take me:
5'2"... too short to stand out, but not short enough to stand out
115lbs... not skinny, not terribly curvy, athletic build but still have a little belly fat
hair.... short, reverse bob, generally some shade of red, sometimes with blonde highlights. considering going deep dark brown with red highlights
face... lots of freckles, stylish glasses, eyebrow ring, nose ring, monroe piercing.
eyes... brown
other attributes- tongue ring, belly ring, multiple earrings, 5 tatoos, fake tan, push up bra bust
why am I telling you all of this? because someone said to me today: You obviously have a take on the world/fuck the world issue of defiance that you haven't outgrown.
Its not defiance. I had long hair. I blended in with all of the other girls with long brown hair. I used to have the honey blonde highlights, I used to try to look like a barbie doll. Theres one bad thing about Barbie... everyone only likes the tall skinny blonde one. I am none of those things. Id rather stand out in a crowd then blend into it. call it defiance. Its not. its self exploration and expression.

So now you know what I look like. Not stereotypical 25 year old woman, not stereotypical jersey italian, not stereotypical college grad, not stereotypical horse girl... JUST ME.

Personality?
Loyal, Trustworthy, honest to the point of 'I love you but your a fucking moron', hard working(gives 115% 13hrs a day and still wonders was it enough?), bust my ass, give you the shirt off my back, bend over backwards to help you out or make you happy, always smiling, a little loud and obnoxious, proud of me and mine and I'll kill you if you try to knock me down.... loving. whether you deserve it or not I give a shit about other people.
My 25th birthday in NYC- pretty normal, right??

over the summer, 2011

So the question is... does it matter what I look like? Can I still be a normal, good person even if I appear a little rough around the edges? My current boss....thingy... idk what she is now cuz honestly I dont know if I can work under someone like her... but she tells me every other day how she almost didnt hire me based on my appearance alone- because I was not the typical all-american looking girl.

IS THAT FAIR??