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I never wanted this blog to be the bitching and moaning over a slightly overweight jersey girl... o well. So today I mowed the lawn, make a slim fast shake to-go, tried not to eat everything in sight at work, drank lots of coffee and water, came home ate a small portion of dinner, did a 30 minute cardio workout, did some squats and crunches and such... and decided to get off my ass and make it to the 9:30 kickboxing class tomorrow morning. Exciting! Yes, I AM looking forward to geting my ass kicked tomorrow morning! I hope its glorious! I have a trip to the Shore 4th of July weekend, I'd like to make up for my recent slacking. I weighed 128.5 this Am... I don't plan on being as high as 130 again anytime soon.

failure causes you to re-evaluate

why do we fail? Because we're not perfect. We fail because we go through a lot of trial and error, and learning. Anyone can tell you no dont try that, I did and this is how wrong it went. But until you experience it for yourself, you never learn the lesson for yourself. Today I weighed 130lbs. And after bitching and moaning to my boyfriend that he shouldn't say I'm perftect as I am... well I moped around and procrastinated like always lol. then I did a treadmill workout to blast 250 cals, ate a small breakfast and vowed not to eat anything at work. Why can't I be like Jennifer Love and punish myself if I eat?? Well, I ate a lil something at work. And I had dinner(leftovers) with my fam after work. and then me and my boyfriend went on a four or so mile bike ride- to get parts for my broken truck. I've got a lot of work to do on myself

the key to blogging

The key to a good blog is finding a good host site to use. I'd never heard of this site until one of my best friends started a blog on it. Since then, I have blogged more then her, but I have recieved no comments, no followers, no views, no nothing. I can't do a search and come up with a link to my blog. So, maybe this is an ineffective blogging site? By saying and posting this statement, is the site going to shut me down? Is it like the government, who can apparently track what you say and do and then come after you? My boyfriend told me that if I said bad things about Obama over the phone, the government would hear and come and get me. So I purposely badmouthed the president and used words like bomb and airplane in the same sentence to test the theory. I was allowed to get on a overseas flight a few weeks later. So maybe thats a fallacy that they can hear me and take action. I don't know, maybe they will read this and come after me, and maybe this blogger site won't ever see what I wrote.
Time to work out and not be a lazy fat-ass. On an outgoing thought- I heard that Michael Douglass has a contract with wife Catherine Zeta Jones that says if she weighs over a certain amount, he can divorce her. My boyfriend then told me that she probabaly has a clause too that says if he loses anymore hair on his already too big head she can do the same. What funny people superstars are!!

control

Ya know what... this world has one thing that will never change.
whats the definition of the world CONTROL? To exercise authoritative or dominating influence over; direct.To hold in restraint; check
Everything must be controled. Chaos cannot reign. It doesn't reign in nature and thus it cannot else where. There is order.
Think about it:
Mom controls the household
Dad controls the income
Teacher controls the learning environment
Coach controls the team
Someone is usually in control in a relationship, unless they share it(never perfectly evenly tho)
What we don't fully comprehend is what we ourselves control. Our fate, our destiny... it is not out of our hands. One bad decision can affect you so much farther down the line, you'd ever connect the two events. Be Aware of what you control, and what controls you.
People who blame their alcoholism on their depression, their repressed memories, their parents... its bullshit. Something you did lead you to that end. Veterans who end up begging for change blame the country they served. Not true, somewhere you expected too much and got disappointed you 'didn't get what you deserved', somewhere you made a conscious effort to not give a f*** and let yourself become this way.
Fat people who blame MCDonalds for their obesity. Somewhere you watched a commercial and let it influence you, and then neglected to halt oyurself.
All-in-all YOU DID IT YOURSELF
I'm no exception. I complain about working 3 jobs- but what am I doing about it? What am I not doing about it? I complain about my crappy truck, about living at home with my rents... but I splurge on my spending too often to combat this. We DO it to OURSELVES.
Think about it............

self-image is key

Here's something no trainer can teach- beauty is really in the eye of the beholder. ever seen models on the runway? I could find a million things wrong with them and their outfits, and so could everyone else. But a child thinks everything and everyone is beautiful and worth their time. Animals don't walk away from us because of our looks, they look for something deeper(like a pocketful of treats!) We'd do well to take a moment to see the world from the eyes of an animal or a child.