Tuesday, August 31, 2010

fate has turned its back on me

opeeeen my eyes (to a world full of dreams)
where ever-y-thing (nothing) is as granduer as it seems
splash the bluest water in my faaaace, and in its place^^^
reeee-a-liiize: fate has turned its back on meee

lived so long, let it take the reins
become a runaway train
a zombie in an imaginary world awoke
frighten child sooobs and chokes
the dingy water stings my eeeyes
fate has fufilled nothing but liiiies

abberation: the only way to survive
deviate and derive
acumen: renew a sense of self again
and
blow the ashes away with the wind

Monday, August 30, 2010

taking responsibility of oyur life...

Taking Responsibility For Your Life

Everything you are or ever will be is completely up to you. Everything that has happened and is happening in your life is because of your behavior, words, and actions. You have the freedom of choice. Virtually every circumstance in your life so far, you have chosen out of your own free will. This means, that you are completely responsible for all your successes and failures; your happiness; your unhappiness; and everything in your present and future.

This realization is like a parachute jump: It’s scary and exhilarating at the same time. Taking total responsibility for your life is one of the most important things you can ever do. Accepting complete responsibility for all your actions represents maturity in your life. When you accept complete responsibility for everything in your life, success, achievement, and self-actualization will follow. You can never accomplish anything of value in your life or have any real measure of happiness without first accepting complete responsibility for all your words, actions, and decisions.

Accepting that you are completely responsible for yourself and realizing that no one is coming to the rescue will mark the starting point of peak performance in your life. Once you accept total responsibility for every decision you make and every action you take, there is virtually nothing that you cannot do, have, and accomplish.

The acceptance of responsibility is so important, that it comes before goal setting. Until you accept total responsibility, you will not seriously set goals and make plans for their achievement. Without accepting complete responsibility, you are unconsciously leaving yourself a way out. This failure to be totally responsible is the equivalent of creating a mental escape hatch that enables you to avoid being accountable for success or failure.

Unfortunately, most people simply make excuses for their failures. They blame other people and things for what’s happening in their life. Since everything we do in life is a matter of habit, when we get in the habit of making excuses for things that happen in our lives, we then get in the habit of evading responsibility at the same time. People who are not successful will often set a goal, and then at the same time create, and hold an excuse that they can use if they find out that their goal is too difficult or requires more self-discipline and persistence than they originally thought.

Underachievers will tend to blame other people or events for things in their lives that they don’t like. The waiting rooms of psychologists and psychotherapists are full of people who are still blaming their parents or anyone else who has been part of their past or present life for all their shortcomings. They’re still saying that someone or something is responsible for their failure to achieve happiness. They’re still looking outside themselves to explain the parts of their lives they don’t like. They’ve unwittingly gotten into the habit of making excuses and blaming for so long that they don’t know how to do anything else.

There is a direct relationship between the amount of responsibility that you accept and the amount of control that you feel. The more responsibility you take, the more in control you are. There is also a relationship between the amount of responsibility you accept and the amount of freedom you feel. The more responsibility you take, the more freedom you have to make decisions, and to do the things you want to do. And if you put all of this together, you’ll find that accepting responsibility is directly tied to, control, freedom, and happiness. The happiest people in the world are those who feel good about themselves. Feeling good about yourself is the natural outgrowth of accepting total responsibility for every part of your life.

A person who is unwilling to completely accept responsibility for his or her life is subject to anger, hostility, fear, resentment, and doubt. Psychological studies have shown that negative emotions are closely associated with blame. On average, 99 percent of all our problems exist only because we we’re able to blame someone or something for them. The instant we stop blaming, our negative emotions begin disappearing.

How do you break the habit of blaming? Use the Law of Substitution which says, your mind can only hold one thought at a time, positive or negative. You can substitute a positive thought for a negative thought whenever you choose. This means, you can override the tendency to blame and become angry simply by saying, firmly, “I am responsible!” You can’t accept responsibility for a situation and be angry at the same time. You can’t accept responsibility and be unhappy or upset. The acceptance of responsibility negates negative emotions and short-circuits the tendencies toward unhappiness.

The very act of accepting responsibility calms your mind and clarifies your vision. It soothes your emotions and enables you to think more positively and constructively. Accepting responsibility gives you insight into what you should do to resolve the situation you are in.

Very often, the problems people have are with other people; problems in their close personal relationships, with their spouses, their children, their friends, and their coworkers. Think of the people in your life who cause you any stress or anxiety and ask yourself, who is responsible? Are they responsible for being in your life, or are you responsible for having those people in your life?

The Law of Attraction says that “you are a living magnet” and that you inevitably attract the people and circumstances into your life that harmonize with your dominant thoughts, especially those thoughts that you give strong emotion to. The people in your life are there because you’ve attracted them by the person you are, the thoughts you hold, and by the emotions you experience. If you’re not happy with the relationships you’re in, you’re responsible. You’ve attracted them, and you’re keeping them there.

If you’ve had a bad relationship, you need to ask yourself, who got you there? If you weren’t forced into the relationship and kept there against your will, then it’s a matter of free will and free choice on your part. If you’re not happy, it’s up to you do something about it. If you’re not happy with the situation, do something about it. If you’re not willing to do something about it, then don’t complain.

Are you happy with your job? If you’re a business owner, are you happy with your business? Are you happy with the amount of money you’re earning? Are you happy with the level of responsibility and your activities each day? If you’re not, you need to accept that you’re completely responsible for every aspect of your job and your career. Why? Because you chose it freely. You took the job or started the business. You assumed the responsibility and accepted the amount of compensation for your job. If you’re not happy with any of the situations in your life, for any reason, then it’s up to you to do something different.

You’re earning today exactly what you’re worth, not a penny more and not a penny less. In life, we tend to get exactly what we deserve. If you’re not satisfied with what you’re getting, look around you at the people who are doing the kind of work you would like to do and earning the kind of money you would like to earn. Find out what they are doing differently from you. Once you find out what they are doing differently, accept complete responsibility for your situation and start applying the power of you mind and all your abilities. And then back them with willpower and self-discipline. Then get busy making the changes you need to make to create and enjoy the life you want.

One of your highest goals in life should be to develop your character. Character is composed of self-esteem, self-discipline, and the ability to delay gratification. Most importantly character is the willingness to accept full responsibility for your life and everything in it. The more you say to yourself, “I am responsible,” in every situation, the stronger your character will become. And every part of your life will improve at the same time.

Copyright©2004 by Joe Love and JLM & Associates, Inc. All rights reserved worldwide.

Joe Love draws on his 25 years of experience helping both individuals and companies build their businesses, increase profits, and achieve total success. He is the founder and CEO of JLM & Associates, a consulting and training organization, specializing in personal and business development. Through his seminars and lectures, Joe Love addresses thousands of men and women each year, including the executives and staffs of many businesses around the world on the subjects of leadership, achievement, goals, strategic business planning, and marketing. Joe is the author of three books, Starting Your Own Business, Finding Your Purpose In Life, and The Guerrilla Marketing Workbook.

Reach Joe at: joe@jlmandassociates.com

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I have a crazy idea... ok its not THAT crazy

So I came up with this idea. I'm gonna spend the night at the shore. My boyfriend and I and 2 of his friends are going to meet a girl I work with at her bungalow rental in Point Pleasant tonight. Pregame a little, and then head over to Jenks bar/club for some BEERPONG! Its Jager specials night, theyre giving away Mets(ew) tickets, $1 drafts and $5 pitchers. could be super fun! Actually, its always fun at the Jersey Shore! We prob wont spend the night, everyones got work early(except me!) but it'll be a funfilled night right in the middle of a helluva week! I'm gonna try drinking beer, hope I dont get sick(I'm allergic to hopps). If you read this, come meet us and tag along!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I thought I was... unforgetable?

I thought I was...
Unforgetable, undeniable...I find I am undetermined. I thought I was sexy, sassy, feisty, ferocsious, unique, one-of-a-kind, THE one... to someone. Even a Jersey Girl gets hurt. Even she listens intently to high hopes and honey sweet words mumbled under chocolate brown eyes that are, in reality, full of shit. Even she is sweep away in a whirlwind moment of raw emotion and adrenaline, only to one day come crashing back to earth. When you said someday, you meant probably not. When you said amazing,gorgeous,babe... you meant there's better, there's someone else. And it wasn't someone saving the space, keeping the spot warm... it was someone taking the place, keeping the bed warm. Even the toughest hearts shatter and fall into the pit of your stomache... But its the toughest ones who choke it back, suck it up, and realize it was never meant to be. No really heart(and head...), it was NEVER meant to be. Good talk. Hang in there.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

I partied with Jersey Shore

Crazyness. Friday, 8/13/10... I headed down to the Jersey Shore to end up partying with the cast of Jersey Shore. Ane Woah shock- they are practically just normal people. They dumb it up for the cameras, do you believe that?
Here's the scoop
I got down there, stopped at my cuz's house to ensure I could drag her ass out with us. Ended up getting ready there. Which included both of us suiting up in corsets, and me adding a push-up bra to my borrowed little(sister's) black dress. Smokey eye make-up, hair gel and a can of hair spray later, plus 5 minutes straightening whats already straight-or in my cuz's case, curling what is already curly- we headed over to Alyssa Dynamite's condo. On the way there, I got super excited, switching lanes like a pro and screaming out my windows. whatevs, let a girl live. Get there to find 4 very drunk and awesome women : ) Lea, Bev, Kristy Go Getta, and Alyssa Dynamite- who happened to be wearing the shirt before the shirt(actually the shirt before the dress? or the outfit before the outfit... however they say it on the show) and drinking mixed drinks where you have to ask "do you wanna get drunk or wasted??" We turned it into techno center, blasted oldies but goodies and all our favs, so hard the bass broke Alyssa's vases that were on the entertainment center. If the bass is too hard, you are too weak. We did a photo shoot during our pre game dance party where I coined the phrase "I'm hoping I can get a profile pic outa tonight". Next thing I know our group is split between 2 cars, heading to Boo, walking in there VIP cuz we're on the guest list bitches, and making our way thru a packed house. I'm telling you they(the cast) showed up about 15 minutes after we did. Lea grabs my arm and is dragging me through people, all over, we lose everybody else... only to walk right into the middle of a Sammy SweetHeart and Ronnie lovers quarrel. Cameras and all. Lea double takes, turns, gives her hottest drunk look and is like "Aren't you Ronnie from Jersey Shore?" Sammy throws her hands in the air says Fuck This and storms off. I'm just like hey whats up. Bouncers are like 'sign these waivers'. I got dragged around by lea a lot, following every cast member, met up with the Situation and Paulie D, got great pics. Somehow I got right up with Snooki and hugged her and took a pic. Don't hate, I was wasted. Bubble Gum vodka and sprite chased by 3 double shots of triple expresso vodka. 'Nuff said!
stories of the night:
Jazzy hugs snooki and helps hoist her onto a bar
While dancing with Snooki and JWow, Jazzy gets dance raped by huge black guy
While out smoking, alyssa knocks into Vinny, and her and Jenna have a nice quick down to earth convo with him. they are then joined by Mike the Situation
Alyssa and Situation have a convo about his ab workout video. She says "I'd buy it if I thought it'd actually work" He lifts and points and says "obviously it does". Waivers need to be signed. Pictures are taken- up close and personal.
Kristy comes up behind the Situation, grabs his ass... more waivers signed... more pics, cameras loving it.
Jazzy is taking pics and gets accosted by bouncer, Paulie D tells bouncer to chill out.

Then they bounced and went to Karma, I was too, um, ya know... to know why we didn't follow. Instead we went to the boardwalk to 3 Brothers to get pizza : )
I woke up alone on the couch in the lving room of Alyssa's condo in a bathing suit top and shorty shorts. Alyssa walked in her own front door. She's wondering how and why I got downstairs to the couch after she tucked me into her bed upstairs in her room. I'm wondering why she came in the front door. We are both wondering what shit went down all night.
Alyssa made pancakes for breakfast, then off to mom and dad Della Fave's house for food and beach : ) I mean crisping! <3 loved it, even the raccoon eyes from our shades. Then relaxing, only to drive home, clean up, and head to work for 2 hrs. I bailed and went to watch the $50,000 Grand Prix at the NJ state fair and horseshow.

All-in-all, you can tell, and the pictures prove... that this was the most epic night Ive had in a WHILE <3 : )

Thursday, August 12, 2010

a chance at a claim to fame?

I have a weekend in Wunderland planned. Friday night after work, hop in the truck and head to the one and only, Jersey Shore. Straight to the heart of the show, none the less- to Bamboo Bar in Seaside. For me and my crew, its an old haunt. For the cast of the show its still a new gig. I've spent years partying and playing. I know vendors on the stretch of boardwalk. I've gotten a tattoo and a piercing from the famed Adrenaline. Seaside Graphix supplies me with a new JerZey Girl banner when it warrants. I know bouncers at Bamboo, I've grinded on the DJ, I've danced on the bar, I've never been thrown out, but almost on many occasions. What makes this weekend special? Besides that I am going down with my crew- Alyssa "Dynamite", Kristy "Go Getta", Bev, Wes, Dr. Al (we'll miss you Jeffy "Blue Balls", Rose "Moondancer", and Laura "Koocoo", we won't miss you Mike 'Subs' "PartyBoy") and whoever else shows face cuz they miss our shore craziness : ), BUT Anjelina from Jersey Shore will be there. The girl who apparently bailed out on two seasons of the show. I wouldn't know, I didn't watch. But Q102 will be buying drinks for all the haters ha and I'll be right there in that. The rest of the Jersey Shore cast is down for the summer in Seaside, I hope to see them at some point. YEAH BUDDY- HERE WE GO

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Reality shows on rampage

Everyone think they should have their own reality show- especially if theyve already been on one. They taste the limelight and they can't get enough. In Touch magazine is right when they call 'reality' personels C-list celebreities. The new thing? Avril Lavigne is dating some block head from 'the Hills' (the hills have eyes? poor girl!), and blockhead Brody Jenner wants a reality show about their relationship. Now, I respect Avril. I liked her music growing up even if it was too whiney for my harder counter parts. Easy listening, easy to sing along to, easy to understand and relate to. If she gfives in to this retard, I might have to throw her cd out, which won't be that big of a deal because I have a bunch of her songs on my Ipod. Needless to say, I won't be watching. yeah I'm sure she leads a pretty cool life, she seems pretty chill, but isn't she better than that? She's an A-list singer, it'd be below her to be on a dumb show when most shows about couples like that end in the duuuumps. I think she should say no thanks hun, have fun making the show, ill appear every now and again, but I've got better things to do. And until I find out whats going down with the 'show' idea, I'll be... well, seriously? Not really caring b/c I don't watch reality TV that much anyway (although You're Cut Off was GREAT)

Thursday, August 5, 2010

... can you handle us?

I can out do those jersy shore morons without even being there! Epic night last night. After work I drove down to Del Val, my beloved alma mater.It was one of my sorority sisters birthday. Good lord I tried to have an anti get drunk plan... fail! I walked into the bar and the bartender said "well well, what can I get ya, trouble??" He looked like he was about to crap himself when I asked for a water to start the night off. SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS!! I only had one actual drink(which I didn't pay for), but like 7 or 8 shots(I think I bought 2? one for me and one for the Bday girl)- and a glass of water, lol. I was little miss social butterfly all over again. A bunch of my girls showed, a bunch of my frat brothers, other people I knew from school. All in all, a goooood night. Played some beer pong, took some epic pics... drank like a fish... everyone had fun(ok mostly everyone) I wasnt caught in any drama, and I loved it. Happy Birthday Private- thank you for reminding me that I am SOMEBODY to people who matter to me. : )

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Jersey Shore

Do you know what its like to watch a bunch of wanna-be idiots portray you in the wrong light? First, the tv show Greek made sororities and fraternities across the country look like drama filled morons. Add insult to injury by allowing Jersey Shore to have a second season. Not only are they getting $30,000 per episode to get wasted, get arrested, and get punched... but they do it so classlessly, so distastefully, so horrendously that you can't tear your eyes away from it, even though it causes physical pain. So I wrote a letter to People Magazine this week. Even if they don't print it in the magazine or post it anywhere, I'll still get my opinion out by posting it here...
RE: Jersey Shore

Dear Editor,

Every time I see “Snooki” in your magazine I gag a little. It takes no talent to do what those Drama Queens do. Snooki’s dad commented in the Aug. 9th issue that his daughter “accomplished her life-long (22 years?) dream” of being on TV (if that’s what you call it). There are obvious reasons why they wouldn’t put her on TV, unless it was for a show like this. As a real Jersey Girl who spent countless weekends fist pumping and partying it up at the Jersey Shore-not just in the summer, but year ‘round- the show and its new reality TV “celebrities” make it look like a trashy, taste-less, and drama filled thing to participate in instead of exciting and fun. I can’t believe someone thought it was a good idea to put that article back-to-back with the ‘Coming Home’ from war one. Heroes should be recognized and praised, idiots and classless hussies should be ignored. I’d rather live my own Jersey Shore than read about the ‘lift and point’ or see that horrendously oversized poof anymore.

P.s. When they deliver People to the office I make sure I grab it first so the ladies around the office can read it before we put it out in the waiting room-where children could destroy it. That’s how important it is to us.

Jasmine “Feisty” Francisco

...a Real Jersey Italian girl...
I have big hair and oversized sunglasses.
I drink corona from the bottle or absolut straight up.
I spend my weekends at the mall, My summers down the shore and late nights in a diner with a plate of cheese fries.
I know which exits are which and that there’s no decent beaches north of exit 100.
I have Springsteen and Bon Jovi on my Ipod.
I spent prom weekend in Seaside, and many a summer on LBI.
I know the mob isn’t just on the Sopranos.
I did Weird NJ before the book.
I sure as fuck don’t pump my own gas
I think if you talk shit about our state, you should get the fuck off our beaches.
I know better then to drive through Camden or Pasaic,and that there are nice areas of Elizabeth.
I know what good pizza & good bagels taste like.
I eat Boardwalk fried zeppoles, & taylor ham egg and cheese on a hard roll.
I’ve been on every coaster at 6 Flags.
I speak my mind and don’t care what people think.
I’ll try anything once, twice if I like it.
I know how to have a good time.
I know that sometimes a kiss is just a kiss,But sometimes it’s so much more.
When I fall, I fall hard,But I can bounce back just as quick.
I drive too fast, I drink too much. I play my stereo too loud,
I love to feel the wind in my hair, and the sand between my toes.
I know there’s no place on Earth quite like New Jersey.
And that no matter where life takes me this will always be home.
.... This is what makes me better than most hahaha I love being a Jerzey Girl..