Birthday blow out

Apparently, when you grow up, birthdays are not all about you. The weather doesn't care its your b-day, nor the roads or anyone on them, they don't announce it over the loudspeaker, nobody goes out of their way to be nice to you. Mom doesnt wake you up with special breakfast and a bunch of presents or arrange a party for you. You're lucky to get a few cards, some facebook posts, or a verbal "Happy Birthday". If you're really lucky a shot or two and a few drinks. Wishing on the candles seems almost irrelevant as does the wish when you slice the cake... they even rush you to make the wish. 23 sucked. Graduated working girl didnt get wasted with her friends like the last 4 years of bliss. I didn't have one drink actually. I got caught in the snow, went to brunch, went to work, worked like a madman, went home to pizza and cake, got a present and a few hugs, watched tv and cuddled... then off to bed. It's just another day. But my co worker bought me my favorite latte and the office gave me a card... they like me... but my mother didnt look at me or aknowledge me. what else is new, I'm still a disrespectful disappointment. And why does it snow on my birthday? I'm too old to enjoy a snow day- I work no matter what the weather now. School kids having a snow day meant more could come into the office and bug me. Cute little buggers. but I hate snow. Sharp, icey coldness that turns to wetness. brrr no thanks. And you ruin it the moment you try to do something with it. Snow is only magical when it is still in an undisturbed blanket. The only thing the snow storm did was remind me of my 19th birthday when life was easier... Kelly, Curt, and the Barness crew drinkng and celebrating me and then Curt tossing me into that blanket of snow(all 6 inches of it) as I kicked and screamed. But damn, it was fun. Back then. I miss them, and I miss it. Being carefree and doing whatever I wanted. Welcome to the real world, where birthdays aren't a magical day where the earth starts revolving around you.

I think my Uggs are bad for my health

so... kinda weird. I think Uggs may be a health hazzard. I guess when I wear them I feel I should/can drag my feet when I walk. Apparently this is a bad thing to do on carpet... why? Because no matter which Uggs I'm wearing- my slippers, my (F)Uggs, the ankle high black boots, or the Uggs boots made out of like sweater material- if I'm on carpet(walking, sitting, laying-whatever) then I'm getting shocked. I get shocked when I touch people or light switches or the metal doorhandle at work. Shock shock shock...owie. Aren't too many electrical shocks bad for your heart and brain? There should be a warning label on Ugg shoe products! "Caution- product can cause electric shock if used on carpeted surfaces"... I mean, what about people with pacemakers or epilepsy?? Im just looking out for the better well being of society : )

What is the USA coming to?

Are we a Capitalist nation when we we're supposed to be a democracy? We are a country about freedom, understanding, and the pursuit of happyness... but now half of us don't have jobs, many are being repo-ed for various things, and the government is putting crooks in positions to deal with this crap. Is anyone gonna stand up and do something about it?? Maybe I will. Voting for the govornor is coming up... ima try to be responsible and pick the very best candidate to give the "big man" a kick in the ass!!

Horses dream too...

Before I left Triangle B Ranch in Florida, I had an amazing experience. Those horses, well the show horses at least, were worked almost as hard as I was. They got maybe an hour a day of turnout if they were lucky. So Sad : (
But one day I turned out my buddy Teddy... a 15.1 H gelding named Chiks RRockstar... when I went to check on him an hour later, he was laying flat out, sleeping in the sun. I didn't want to wake him, he looked so sweet and sooo cute and innocent. So I stopped and watched him. He started paddling his front legs just like dogs do!! I bet he was having the bestest dream about running free and galloping! He even tossed his head a little bit in his sleep. It was precious. It reminded me that no matter how bad things get, we always have our dreams were everything can be perfect, and sometimes we can use them to escape from the harsh reality of the real world. : ) Thanks Teddy, miss you sweetie!

I'm tired of hating my life... so I'm doing something about it

Life since graduation sucks. But Im gonna take matters into my own hands and live the life I want. Let me explain:
I graduated with 2 job offers in Kentucky and one in Australia. Australia was too expensive and not really what I wanted to do, and the Kentucky people wanted me to do minimum wage mexican work. NOPE. I kept looking around online, and I stumbled across a "quarterhorse breeding facility in need of a manager". Sounded pretty good. Looks can be decieving. They flew me down, i worked a few days, I went home and called them up and took the job. Packed my truck and drove 1100 miles to Florida. WOOPEE.Well, like I said, not what i expected. my job-> live-in nanny for 22 horses. Really? AAAND I got crappy pay. My boss was an asshole- always coming down to the barn in a bad mood, quick to yell and get upset, everything had to be his way. Walked all over me and personally, I think he really beat me down mentally :/ I have an $80,000 degree... what do I do with it now? Be someone's slave? I don't think so. So when my knees gave out from all my hard work, I thanked God and used it as an escape route back to Jersey. Now I'm waiting on Doctors and looked for a desk job because the only work out there for someone with a degree in equine science is mexican work : (

Bad Idea:SAMBAZON Acai Antioxidant Superfood smoothie

So last night I was shopping for healthy foods- fruit & slim fast basically- when I stumbled upon a "superfood". The top of the bottle says "Supergreens Revolution", the company that destributes it is SAMBAZON. It's the Acai Antioxidant Superfood (organic Smoothie). "2x the antioxidants of blueberries, 1905mg healthy omegas 3-6-9, 120 acai berries per bottle!!" Its healthy, can boost metabolism and the immune system, and is all natural, so I thought it was worth a try. I was wrong. I took one sip and realized this almost immedately. The ingredients: acai puree, apple juice, grape juice, banana puree, mango puree, amazing grass supergreens(wheat grass,barley grass, oat grass, alfalfa, soy lecithin) and o yeah, citric acid. I took two sips and I was done, put the $5 bottle back into the fridge. Then I went out to feed the horses in the barn. As I broke open a new bale of hay, I realized the smell that hit me reminded me of the taste still in my mouth. If I wanted to drink horse food I coulda got it for free. WTF. I pureed some strawberries and added it to the bottle- no luck, still gross. I think instead of wasting the bottle I'm going to take a shot of it every morning and chase it with cranberry juice until its gone. I won't lie, I was pretty energized all day. AND I didn't gain any unneccesary weight today : ). I just need to melt away the extra stupid fat in those hard to get places(love handles, thighs, and belly) and I will be sooo happy!
SO the point of this blog- do not try that superfood... Eeew! Eat some grass if you want. The other point, I'M STILL LOSING WEIGHT! : ) I hope to be super in shape by the time lil Miss Sniggles' wedding rolls around!! Yay!! <3

Sometimes I really hate the rain...

So, people say I have that "girl next door" appeal. Well, actually, an ex-boyfriend and his best friend told me that. And I guess its true. some people get to know me and they fall head over heels for me for no apparent reason. Usually I either get bored with them or I decided we just have to stay friends... like legit-just friends. Since I've been to Florida its been happening, and then again it also hasn't. Let's justsay it all started with my current boyfriend...
Jack-My boyfriend from Jersey
Jack and I met 2 weekends before Easter at a club in Morristown. My cousin and I were standing at the bar talking, mostly about how she didn't have the guts to go walk up and talk to the hot guy who was staring at her across the bar. I told her that I do that sort of thing all the time, and I decided to demonstrate. I saw Jack and his 3 friends farther down the bar, and then his friends left him to go to the bathroom. So I walked right up to him and started talking to him, invited him to come hangout with my cousin and I, and offered to buy him a drink. We spent the night talking and chillin and started hanging out that week. We waited 3 months to start dating, but in that time he came down to my college every weekend(and some weeknights!), came for dessert on Easter, and spent a lot of time texting. Jack knew he was interested that first week when he drove 70 miles out of his way to pick me up at my college and take me to diner one night- a Tuesday night!!I was impressed and likewise interested. Have I mentioned he has a great car? An Infinity G37 that he let me drive to the restaurant when we went on our first date! And a great body haha... for a Polish kid! But he stuck by me through family problems, graduating, and looking for-then finding- a job out of state... and we are currently still together(ugh long distance lol). But he mentioned recently that I "had him at hello", mostly cuz he'd never seen a girl just walk up to a guy like that.Lol
Robert- the first guy I met when I moved to Florida
I went up to him in a bar and started talking to him, we hung out, danced, he bought me drinks, and we exchanged numbers. Well he called me the next day, and every day(sometimes more than once a day) for like 2 weeks. Robert had no job(he did handy-man odd jobs), a cell phone that was outa minutes(he always called me from a different number), and no money to "take me on a real date" (thats what he said). Well that's all fine and dandy, I only wanted to make friends. But he told his friends who told me that He really liked me, thought I was the one he'd been waiting for, was the coolest girl he'd ever met... blah blah blah. Well we coulda been friends, until his stupid friend dragged us along on a drug deal. That was the deal breaker.
Bobby- works for my boss's feed company & delivers our feed/hay/shavings
Bobby is apparently half black/half latino. 6 foot tall with a baby face and a little extra baggage. He's also got two kids... not a bad thing, I love kids! But then we are working in my barn at the same time and he's flirting and I'm nonchalantly flirting back(if you knew me you'd know that's just how I am, it's my personality) and the next thing I know he's trying to pin me up against the truck and/or the wall and make me kiss him. Of course I wouldn't. I told him he has to wine and dine a girl before he gets anything- and I mean anything. Ya know what he said? "I don't know what kinda guys you've been dealing with back home up there in Jersey but that's not how we do things down here" so I said "I don't know what kind of skanky ass girls you've been banging but that's not gonna get you anything from me". Point Jazzy! Score: Jazzy 1, Bobby 0!!!
Kris- a friend of a friend
Kris and I met about 2 weeks ago, My friend kinda took me on a double/blind date. Her boyfriend and his friend, me and her. She'd never met any of his friends, and I was looking to make friends and it just seemed like a good idea. So we meet up with them, do some shots, go out and drink and shoot pool, come back and play rockband for a few hours, I fall asleep on Kris's couch, and long story short I slept over(nothing happened!) and got up mad early for work the next morning. Well we hung out again the next night, he took me out to dinner and a movie and helped me do my night time barn chores. Apparently by Monday he's telling my friend I'm the most awesome girl he's so glad he met me blah blah blah- and then I get the full story. Kris had been with the same girl for 9 years. They got married, divorced, have a 4 year old kid... and I would be the first girl he's ever "dated" besides her. I was like woah lets put this in reverse for a hot sec there... obviously this kid is a one woman man, and I'm no where near ready for that! AH! So I waited a few days but finally mentioned that I have a boyfriend back home in Jersey. And he was like ok that's cool please can we still hang out because Ive never had so much fun until I met you. So yeah...
This is not the first time these situations have occured, I see it all the time in my past lol. O well. Just thought that since it was pouring and thundering and lightning outside I'd take a few moments to sit down and explain that haha.

Blogging sounds fun

Hey there. I dont know who will look at this but whatevs.
So I'm sitting here alone in my apartment in Anthony, Florida watching America's Next Top Model. I just did my hair so that when I get done with the barn chores I can go out for a night on the town : ) I also just helped my boss turn out my favorite baby, my little Munchkin. Is it sad that I told the baby I love her? She reminds me of my niece- so spunky, so beautiful, so innocent, and so lil bitty! The baby is a 4 month old quarter horse filly out of Cowgirl in the Sand by CUSTOM CHROME- custom chrome! Big money daddy! And she is a fancy lil thing! She is one of the only parts of my job that I enjoy. Maybe its cuz when I came here, humans couldnt get within ten feet of her(I'm sure when my boss bodyslams her to handle her it doesn't help) but I worked with her diligently and lovingly and now I can pet on her and love on her and give her kisses and put medicine in her little eye... you get the picture: that baby loooves me!!
SO tonight I'm going to start my barn chores early, get dressed all cute and head out-- so excited! Sadly, Fridays are my only day off so I only go out to have fun on Thursday nights...gay! What happened to the college days of going out and doing something every night no matter what I had to do in the morning? O, right- I graduated : )... and the real world sucks! lol I prefer to spend my fridays at the beach with the tiki bar right there and hanging out and meeting new people at the beach... keyword BEACH(miss the jersey shore!!) but my boss told me he doesn't want me heading to the beach on all of my days off cuz " its too far and if u need anything Im not coming out to help you out" (gag me, thanks for your concern). Whatevs, you're not my father, and I do what I want!! <3