CANCUN 2010!!!

So, after our second wintery blast in a week(we got 15-18 inches! I HATE SNOW!) I have fnally begun packing for my 1st aniversary trip with my boyfriend, Jack. We are leaving at 5am Wednesday March 3rd for Sunny Cancun Mexico! First of all, I have never been out of the COUNTRY which is super exciting, and this will be the farthest I've ever been away from home! I'm so excited! I got my passport 2 or 3 weeks ago, around the time I cut and dyed my hair to get a new, more grown-up image : ) The snow had only made it more apparent to me that I nee a vacation with my lovey. He needs it too, poor kid works his ass off : ( sad face. We are meeting up with my good friend Ruth and her AF hubby, even though he broke his leg in two places a few weeks ago... damn ice patch! Even tho weather.com says check flight delays due to scattered t-storms, we'll be arriving there, not taking off, so I'm not concerned... yet. But we are looking at a high of 80 something degrees... thats something to look forward to! we are gonna pick up lots of sunscreen for the whiteys we are going with(everone but me actually, lol since I took up tanning a month ago to get myself a nice base) and Ruth and I have already planned our wardrobes-- mostly sundresses and yes, bathing suits! The only real problems i foresee are a little bit pf rain, a lot of alcohol(since its all inclusive), some sunburn(not for me!) and maybe runing out of time to do all the fun things we wanna plan- horseback riding on the beach, atv tours thru the jungle, shopping downtown, sampling the nightlife, jet skiing, eating a dolphin(Ruthann's idea), sex on the beach(the drink haha not) and etc!! A funny note to leave you on- THIS WILL BE MY FIRST SPRING BREAK EVER and I'm not even in school anymore! Cancun, here I come! Hope you handle JerZey!

One lightning cloud : )

When I lived in Florida(October 2009 when I worked @ Triangle B Ranch in Anthony), I saw something pretty cool. One morning I came out...it was pitch dark, being 6 in the morning and all. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a flash of light. There weren't any lights outside the barn or any cars passing by, or really anything to cause it. But in a few minutes it happened again. Since it startled me I stood still and studied the direction it came from. In a few moments (could have been seconds lol IDK) I found the source of my flash. A single tiny storm cloud was being illuminated but the huge bolts of lightning it randomly emitted. Single streaks at a time revealed one small dark cloud. But that one cloud had enough power and pressence to catch my attention and keep it. I watced that cloud slowly make its way across the sky -carefree- joined by no others, needing no other, just doing what it wanted to do. It didn't bother anyone. That single cloud just made me feel less alone at I time when I felt downtrodden. That cloud said eff you clear night sky, I'm gonna do my own thing. Its not that it didn't need anything else in its existance, it just proved that it could stand on its own, be different and unique, awe-inspiring without even trying. Since its an inatimate object, it was probably a fluke of nature, a rare occurence caused by just the right elements being in place at a certain time. But it helped me realize that there had to be something more out there. Its not just me here, its not just one place, one thing, one moment in time... there are elements that make up all of those things that have to occur at the wrong or right moment in the right or wrong place to achieve certain results. I am a firm believer in fate, or destiny. Many times over i realized if I hadnt been there or done this it wouldnt have lead to that, and furthermore, if i was there or had done that it could/would have lead to THAT. This true life story could get confusing without naming people and places, but here goes: Recently I was supposed to go somewhere with some people and meet up with someone else, and I had consciously chosen not have a certain someone come with me. Well, long story short- I didn't go to that place with those people, didn't meet up with that someone else, but instead stayed where I should have been all along- right with that certain someone. I know something regretable would have happened had I gone, but before I didn't care. I wanted to test out the possibilities. Instead, I ended up being right were I was meant to be all along. FOR ONCE. It doesn't always happen like that. What about the people who worked in the Twin Towers who woke up late or with a stomache ache on the morning of Sept 11th? Maybe someone got into an accident on the way and thought they started their day off horribly but ended up being saved from the tragedy? We don't know if the guy who took down the plane in PA that same day had been thinking for, o how long, that his life hadn't amounted to anything yet and probably never would. But he unknowingly saved lives and showed a selfless heroism in the midst of a dark moment. What if my truck had struck another vehicle as it made its way off the road, or if the pole had given out when it broke and my truck had rolled over, or if I had woken up in time to feel the pain and cause more damae to myself by tensing up? Or what if I hadn't fallen asleep on a nearly desserted country road, instead on a highway with concrete barriers and more traffic. What if...What IF... WHAT IF? There is something at work in the world. I don't know what to call it... God(yes, I'm Catholic and I believe he exists), fate(doesn't God leave us up to our own antics through use of free will?), or Destiny(that our paths are predetermined, though we screw ourselves by straying and such)... you have to admit... there's something.

Side note: The only time I've ever seem something remotely like this was from the window of the plane that took me home the first time I visited the ranch in Florida. A huge black cloud far below that was its own powerhouse. Amazing. Strangely enough, I saw my little cloud maybe a week before I left Florida to return home to Jersey and leave behind the oppression and 21st century indentured servitude that was my life at Triangle B Ranch.